So because this is more than just my bow blog...I'll share a little something about myself. Well...as I've already mentioned, I'm a mom. All these pics below are of my beautiful little Sayla. She is such a joy. Part of what comes with having kids is the beauty of God's creation of our bodies changing. A lot plays into that change. For me personally it has a lot to do with my food choices since she came. I didn't have cravings at all during pregnancy, but the day i had her, i had to have my oreos. And not just one or two, I needed at least half the bag. This is a confession i do not like, because I always prided myself in being healthy, and eating accordingly. It was NEVER hard for me to say no to soda, sugar, treats...or anything for that matter. If I told myself i was going to do something, I DID IT. And that is gone. I exercised on a regular basis and found so much joy in it, mostly running. It's has really taken a toll on me. No I'm not fat, no I'm not skinny. And...NO i'm not healthy, and feeling healthy is what truly matters. When I'm healthy I look good to myself regardless of what the camera reflects. I'm in the middle of this battle. I keep thinking I'm there and I've figured out what my problem is...but I haven't. I need to, and maybe there's someone else out there who knows, and has been there. I only have one child, and I know it just gets harder with more children, finding time to exercise and eating right. which is why I'm on a mission to dig in deep once again. I have days when I get angry, days where I just feel straight depressed, and days where I avoid thinking about the reality of what's going on inside me. I refuse to let this go much further. My physical health is something I take serious.
Here's a bow I experimented with today. Give me some input. Tell me what you think.
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